My new goal

As I fall into this place of life and lost cause I feel myself falling further from the dream that I once had. I truly thought that I would be able to do something special but as time passes I realize that I am not special I am average perhaps worse. I was always brought up knowing I was the best at everything until everything I was good at become irrelevant. In the next month I will turn 26 a number that feels so distant from who I am and how I feel I am capable of acting. I can only feel so old given what I've accomplished I've broken every hope any has ever held for me. The only person that I have not let down is my mother who seems to live in this delusional place where she tells all her friends I am a success. She pretends that I am something I am not but maybe I started that being as I tried for so long to be someone I wasn't. I used to "fake it til I make it" until I watched my mistakes drag the people I cared about through the mud. The actions I have taken have put my family through a financial nightmare over the past 3 years... That's 3 years of life over something that took me 8 weeks to let happen. I have been more selfish than I can even explain and I deserve what I get. Even now I have things that I do not deserve, The car that I have is financed by my family and given to me... I am no prince yet I've been handed everything for so long I've never known how to earn anything. I'm hoping to become someone who can actually handle the troubles of hard work. I would really like to focus on paying back the people who I've let down over the next year. That will be my new goal.

Trains in the moonlight

Whenever I stand committed to the place where the world is at ease I just make a silly little song and walk to the beat. I come and I go I watch and I suffer the people I know they are better with whoever I am evil I cannot change ever since the days it rained but now I'm alone forever hiding and I can't be whoever I used to be. I've watched the days go passing by like a train in the moon light light light I can't be who you need me to be so I say you are better off without me.

Dear Randy Moss!!!

I think you got what you deserved if in fact the Minnesota Vikings chose to put you on Waivers, you clearly have no idea how to become a part of a team and the pass that landed at your feet was an embarrassment to you. You don't deserve your star status you are good for only one thing and even that you chose not to do properly. Enjoy a reduced salary next year you moron, you talk about business as if you're all about it and then you don't show up to work... Wow!

This Oil Spill is sad

I'm trying to figure out how this could happen? I mean how could you possibly ruin the worlds most beautiful and wonderful thing..The Ocean. The pictures I've seen are disturbing I hate to see it and I can assure you the BP is not happy about it either. They have lost more than 70 billion in stock value as of a few days ago and I just don't think anyone who's involved is laughing. This is one of the worst things that could have ever happened to the world and it's enough to make people lose value on real estate and Underwater life is dying by the masses it's a disgrace. I really hope that they are able to stop the problem soon. I've heard recently that they have had some luck syphining the leaking well but I just don't think that's enough. Yes it's a start and yes I'm so happy to hear about it happening but we need a 100% fix on the leak so we can focus all of our attention and resources onto the clean up process. The clean up process will take years but hopefully 100 years from now they will talk about this in past tense instead of saying "That's why the beach looks awful and the water is disgusting" Everybody who is religious should be praying about this...

Tonight a guy hit me UFC style

I was walking into the mall a guy walks up aggressively and asks me for 10 bucks. I say hell no get away from me...He gets upset looking at me like I just killed his puppy. I start to walk away I'm thinking Ice Cream already....All of the sudden I get a kick in the back of the leg..a hard kick I go down....He pounces on top of me faster than seems realistic. I look up at him he's so upset...He wants to beat me I keep blocking his punches pulling him close to me to limit his power..I used to train Thank God but he's much more advanced than me. He gets one solid punch in...man it hurt but I'm so upset also by this point so I start hitting him from the bottom but he's in rage...out of nowhere my buddy rocko tackles him.. Dell! I didn't even know he was at the mall! Rocko is big and Dell trains alot the guy knows Dell and takes off. I'm a little beat up and a little embarrassed but lucky thing for me I have a lot of great friends. After the beating I decided Ice Cream wasn't necessary! Wow...someday's are crazy!

Ken Griffey Jr.

He was one of my favorite players of all time. He scorched the baseball world in his first 11 years and he was one of the greatest fielders of all time! So I thank him for his service and will be enjoying some Espn tonight! #24

Mixed Martial Arts like UFC

Does anyone else get into MMA also known as mixed martial arts.. I love it I get it I feel it I'm all about it. I used to train with my father years ago he was trained in Karate and Kung fu but this is entirely different and I'm no Bruce Lee but I still get into it just like his movies. I have a big nuclear family including 5 brothers and 2 of them are marines so we like to fight and wrestle and basically beat each other up haha but I'm shorter than all both of the Marines and they usually take me out lol. Lots of fun but embarrassing being that I'm 6 Foot 223lbs and getting beat down. I'm thinking of spending some serious time training and just getting the knowledge, you know? What do you think? :)